Monday, October 5

I don't see old...

I have to share something with you Rainee said to me last night... at some point lately Rainee's heard me say... I'm feeling old... and she's started thinking that when I have my birthday I'm going to be 'old'... but I didn't know she was thinking until last night... when she said themost precious thing to me...

We were justabout to read our books for the night and she wanted to know why it wasgetting so cold.... and I said winter was coming... and that means, Christmas,snow, Papa's birthday, Thanksgiving, being good for Santa and Mommies birthday... Allthe while I was telling her what winter held, she was happy and smiley,but when I mentioned my birthday... she got really sad... and I askedher what was wrong... and she started drawing in the air... and I triedguessing what she was so sad about and what she was drawing... then she finally said...

"Mommy I don't want to you have a birthday, because you're going to be old, I don't want you to be old!" And she nearly started to cry... then I asked her, "Do I look old to you?" and she said the most precious thing....as she put her hands to her face to make little glasses...

"I don't see old, I see my mommy."... she did this several times by getting really close up to my face and saying it over and over again.... "Mommy, I really don't see old."

So I asked her what she thought old was... and she said, "Papa is old but you mommy, you're not old... I don't see old." When she said this my heart was so overcome with emotion... she is so precious... it's amazing what we see and what a child sees.... I may feel older and I may even see older in the mirror... but Rainee only sees her mommy. She doesn't see old in me. I'm still overwhelmed with her words.

What a wonderful way to wake up... remembering what my daughter sees.... she only sees her mommy!

Here is one of my most favorite photos of the 3 of us... and when I look at it now... I have new thoughts about it... I see what Rainee sees... and what she means when she says, Papa is old... and ya know what Papa is old... he's celebrating his 84th birthday this year... so even if I'm feeling old... I know I'm not old.... it' just me, Rainee's mommy.

6 comments:

jmag911 said...

Your daughter is just adorable!! Love the story! Jeannette

deana said...

Rainee is right. :-)

Sam said...

awww - what an absolutely lovely story!! And of course, Rainee is right!

TiaKeas said...

Children are so pure. When my son was 4 a friend of mine was visiting and she said something about not being pretty and my son said" You are pretty because your a mother and all mothers are beautiful."
Out of the mouths of children.

Julie Tucker-Wolek said...

Ok...sooooooooooo now the waterworks are flowing....see...Aleida was right....and Rainee knows it!!! loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee that photo! :):):):):):):):):):):):):)

JustJoan said...

That Rainee! What a sweetheart. If you can find it, there's a book called, "How old is old?" that is a fun childrens book.
Speaking of birthdays....isn't yours here in less than a month? Any special plans?
Thinking of you....Love, Joan