Weekly Gratitude...

Fake it till you make it. The last couple of days I woke up feeling great... then... a couple of hours into the day I started getting ino an awful mood. I was down, anything and everything was irritating me... I was impatient with Rainee, Steve and the dog. I was so frustrated because I didn't want to be this way... just moments ago I was fine... so what was the problem? I wanted out of this bad mood before it effected my whole day and everyone I love.

On Saturday... I pretty much faked a good mood all day.... everything I did, I did with a smile... which was killing me inside... but I kept it on. There were so many moments when I wanted to be really angry at things going on around me... but I kept up the fake mood and smile on... and by the time I realized it it... I was better... I was having a good day again!!

So when this bad-mood thing happened again yesterday... I decide to do the “fake it till I make it” approach one more time... to see if it would actually work again. I figured I can act the way I want to feel I might just have another good day. I decided to just play the day away with Rainee... so no matter what happened I was going to keep my smile on and the bad-mood at bay.... I was going to fake being happy until I felt it.

I played Littlest Pet Shop with Rainee and watched movies. But the mood wasn't changing... I was still faking it. So when it was time for lunch... I realized Rainee had filled her jar of chore marbles.... so instead of having lunch at home... I grabbed Rainee and decided it was time for a surprise... and took her to Chuck E. Cheese.... a place that always brings such joy on her face... which I was hoping it would do the same for me and my mood. Once there, within a the first fifteen minutes... I was considerably better... we were eating pizza... playing games and laughing... I was really laughing... I wasn't faking it... I was having fun!!! Yeah!!!

When we left... we were both happy... and enjoyed our time together. The rest of the evening I didn't have to fake it... because I was back to feeling like myself again. I know how a bad mood can ruin a perfectly wonderful day... and I also know how it can effect those around me... so by faking my 'good-mood'.... it actually helped me turn my day around.

Sometimes all it takes is a little gratitude for what you have... and who you're with, to change your day... and sometimes you have to... "faking it till you make it"... to make you grateful... to change your day... and turn a bad-mood into a good one. Faking it till you make it... really workes for me, I just have to remember I can change.... even if I have to fake my way to get there. I'm grateful I faked my way to a happier mood these last couple of day...